I decided to do another entry today because I am just a blob of emotions today. I just want something more. More than a life full of debt. More than financial stress. More than being in this hole. I'm angry that I got myself here. I understand that we have been dealt a difficult hand and some circumstances that we can't control, but we should be prepared. I'm not looking to beat myself up. I am actually feeling better about things. But today is a different day. I can't really explain it. I am sad and angry and determined and optimistic. The idea of a super frugal month has really inspired me. Maybe if I try this and keep plugging along...maybe I can do this. Today I feel like I am rising up out of the ashes, but crouched down and holding on for dear life on the ascent. I am believing that there is more to life than this. That its ok to want more. And that its ok to think I deserve more, if I am willing to put in the work. Maybe its a breakthrough moment. Maybe its being too hopeful. I don't know. But I'm riding this wave.
June 25th, 2018 at 06:51 pm